According to Ralph Waldo Emerson” the philosophy of waiting
is sustained by all the oracles of the universe". Waiting is a problem for
me and while I'm dealing with a chronic illness I'm learning that it's even more of a problem
because I am not exactly patient. I've
said before I'm dealing with a really bad episode of arthritis that has
affected my hands and my neck. Since my job involves writing/typing and the use
of my hands this is a really big problem for me. Today is the first time I'm
actually using a program to speak to my computer. It's weird having to train my
brain to talk rather than type. But I'm grateful that I have this option to be
able to continue my work. I'm also grateful that I have people at work who have
been very supportive and to have helped me obtain the programs and equipment
that I needed to do my job, work with students, write books and to continue to
write blogs. Still getting used to a new medicine as well that I need in order
to feel better is not easy at the same time. In fact, the medicine is making me
feel worse. I'm tired, I have chills, and I have fevers. Today I read the
little insert that comes with the medicine and guess what????? Those are all side effects of the drugs. This leads me back to needing to be patient.
Patience is not one of my best qualities. So I start reading my daily
reflections on patience. And it tells me "I need only to look and see that
things happen in their own time. The resolution of each problem has its own
timetable. No amount of wishing, wringing of hands or raging will affect that
change. Acceptance is the simple act of going through what is presently facing
me, be it pain, anger, despair, hopelessness or their opposites. When life as
it really is becomes a fact that I accept as naturally as I breathe, events lose
their power to throw me off balance or disturb the basic rhythm of my
life." Maybe today I can practice what I just read.
I think you will getting better. I am also a impatient person, but sometimes I have to push myself be patient due to the specific situation. Then I will give myself five minutes to lose mind,but just 5 minutes. And after 5 minutes I told myself I am a patient person and do the next thing. Or you can talk to a patient friend.
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